Why does your skin flare up?
I don't know but I do know it gets better when I am in the sunshine. I need less ointment, pills and cream. But in my mind I feel in Brighton as well as in the sunshine. My mind is not under any undue pressure or stress.

Washing more frequently seems to help.

I think I will go under the sun bed twice a week for 40 minutes at a go instead of 20 from now on. Swimming is good for my skin as long as I have a good shower and plenty of moisturiser afterwards. Would doing nothing be the answer? No I tried that and things got out of control. Better to control it for now.

Can another kind of quick solution help? How about Reike? How about volcanic lakes up in Iceland? How about caressing gently without instead of rubbing or scratching with greed.

Why such avarice why such desire? As a child we always fought over the last sweet or nice thing in the house. Not so much fight as we had to have it first and finish it all quite quickly until there was no more. Why. I don't know because there was always loads to spare of crisps and coke and snacks in the bar. But there was a sense that it might not be there tomorrow or you could not have it tomorrow well not without using some kind of subterfuge to get it. So how does this relate with the skin. Well the rubbing is done in a subterfuge way when nobody is looking or paying much attention. Especially in the toilet or in the bed in the morning. Yes before I go out and face the world because they will look on in disapproval if I indulge there so I better indulge frantically.


There other thing is I am doing it often very vigorously without realising it. I don't understand it because I only realise I am doing it when I have already been doing it for sometime. Just when I suddenly realise that three quarters of the bag of sweets are gone when I am watching a movie. My hand keeps on reaching without me knowing. My hand needs to actively be taking pleasure regardless of what my mouth or body wants. After all, if my hands were tied and I was watching a movie then I wouldn't be reaching over with me feet or head for another sweet. I told Louise to keep the sweets by her side and feed me from time to time. And it worked. I didn't reach. It was only when her hand fed me that I got the enjoyment. It did not frustrate me or annoy me that my hand was not moving all the time. My hand movements just stopped and I forgot about it.
So what is to learn from this? I can't control my hand if there is a bag of sweets nearby or and itchy part of my body. So take away the sweets from the reach of my hand. Take my body away from my reaching hand. I can't. I can. How? With creams with sun beds with baths with the caresses of a love one? With all the love and attention it needs to be kept away from my hand.

Or I could teach my hand not to reach for sweets near me. How, hypnotherapy? Conditioning? Autosuggestion? Visualization? What would it do instead? Nothing. Yes. Caress your body. Instead of feeding your body loads of sugar, feed your body full of caresses and exercise.



My legs area on fire this month and I have it just about under control. But I don’t understand this outbreak for I am working in a project to help young adults. I am doing something to improve the well being of other people in the world just like Ruskin recommends that we all do once we have perfected all the functions of our own personal lives. The only thing is that I am not helping children with atopic dermititis. I know I will. But when is the question. I will have to get a qualification as a youth worker.